Emotional tracking – Tonotopics

October 15, 2020October 15, 2020

The motivation for emotional tracking

On a rondom Tuesday night, two of my friends and I went out for dinner. When I came home last night I just realised what a privelage to have the opportunity to sometimes just be me and have people in my life who think like me and dream like me and actually understand my job and working environment.

I have previously chatted about emotional tracking and my attempt to give this a try. I have however asked myself quite a few times why I have this need to put in the time and effort and continue going on this self-involved journey time and time again? Why is this a concept that has resonated with me so much? Why am I bothered with things that a lot of people do not even acknowledge? Why is my overthinking mind overthinking the overthinking?

October 7, 2020October 8, 2020

When we disappoint ourselves…

Emotional tracking continued

Please forgive this incoherent ramble but there has to be a home for this as well amidst the planning and the sorting and the dreaming.

I wrote about the emotional tracking here and I am struggling today to give the anger a name. I have looked up synonyms: irate, annoyed, displeased, irked… I have weighed them up and turned them around in my mind and on paper… but nothing felt appropriate, nothing was exactly right. And then it dawned on me, what I am feeling is not anger or rage… it is “disappointment”.

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